Bad to worse

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Things were sort of ok - in that way that it was almost possible to forget that I had any issue at all - and just when I thought I could almost live that way, they got bad.

THEN they got worse.

Since yesterday evening I've not been able to eat or drink anything - not even water. Every sip of water I take (because that is all I've dared try today) is a massive undertaking and makes me feel like I'm going to absolutely choke. I even spat out one of those tiny sips because I wasn't confident that it would not kill me. 

So yeah, got the old headache back and I am 100% thirsty. I am also slowly losing my focus and I can see that my legs will start to wobble very soon. This will also inevitably trigger my anxiety and perhaps even keep me up at night, further making me tired, grumpy and a nightmare. 

Previous bad days have eventually turned into good ones so I'm hoping that this does, too. 

The struggle continues. 

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